BOTH kids are sick, update on me ...

Wednesday, May 16th, 2007, 11:41 pm


Boy am I ever exhausted!! I'm sleeping so well now. being back at work makes me feel like I was idle here at home. Does that make sense? I got to spend time with my 2 yo buddies today. Out of the 8 classes we have, the two, two year old classes has made the biggest deal about my being back. I took some pics today on my phone that would just crack you UP!!! I got sent down to work with the school-agers this afternoon when it come time for them to get there. "C" just started with this group, having been working with the four yo's for a few months (she started after me). The regular teacher was out today. I did not walk away with a lasting impression of that group as a whole, and I got the distinct impression "C" had the same as I.

She was so frustrated that she had doubts whether she could make it through the summer with that group. Then it hit me as we were giving them snack.... with the younger ones, we're heroes. They do not know better to have formed "real" bad habits yet. They 'live' to do nice things for us. (I have a whole stack of scribble "pictures" that have been drawn for me, lol) .

.... but when you work with these kids ... you are reduced to a mere servant. The rudeness, the disobedience, the eye rolling (from some...), it's just crazy!! I explained to "C" that it was particularly hard for me because here I've spent the past seven years teaching my kids to respect their teachers / elders, etc .. and have good manners and be kind. I just HOPE they do not fall of the wagon and end up like a lot of these kids act! Don't get me wrong, God love them all and if he called me to work with this group I would, but I thank him he hasn't, lol Is that bad? Don't get me wrong, there are a FEW sweet ones ... out of the 25 on roll.

Speaking of 25,(26) my heart is going to break in a few weeks. We do our promotions at church in June so I am working on my admin type stuff for my class, getting updated info, etc ... so far, the best I can tell, I'll have 14 leaving, and 12 staying. I don't know who is moving up from the twos but I am losing over HALF of my roll!!! I remember my first promotion day. I had put my heart and soul into bonding with that class, and it never occurred to me that whole year they'd be leaving one day. I cried for a week, I was a pitiful site. It gets easier, though. It was all worth it two years later when one of the kid's dad stood up in Wednesday night service and announced his dd had gotten saved. That was the first one out of my first class to get saved. and the Lord allowed me to plant those seeds in her heart. THAT still makes me weepy!! It's just so hard to believe it has already been a YEAR and I'm getting a new group to start all over with. Wow.

So MY kids ...

Jackson come home Monday with fever, and vomiting. Jay stayed home with him yesterday, and his fever broke Tuesday night. Jay planned to stay home with him today (school policy is 24 hrs no fever AND no medicine) .... Well, Hannah wake sup with PINK EYE. Lets not forget, she had strep last week (my own dx). So Jay takes them both to the dr today ... they both have infection in their throats, but it's not strep. Hannah indeed has pink eye. Lets remember, we have no health insurance right now on the kids. Jay shelled out $150 today just in 'down pymts' to the dr visit and meds!! They said they'd bill us for the balance. Mom said she would watch them tomorrow. They should be ok to go back on Friday. Jackson's still complaining about his throat hurting. No fever though, PTL He felt SOOOO bad.

On to me ... again ....

I'm so tired. Have I mentioned how tuckered I am?I can barely keep my eyes open and I have two more boards to look at so I'm going to square this one up .... have a great day Thursday, please pray Hannah will let us give her her eyedrops without a fuss!!

First Day Back To Work (yesterday!)

Wednesday, May 16th, 2007, 12:32 am

Thanks for the prayers everyone. I had a massive headache last night. Fell asleep by 9:30, slept the whole night. That felt SO good. My hours have changed and I'm now 8-5, BIG blessing! IT's taking some adjustments and I'm still having to be careful, and I'm dog tired, but other than that ... glad to be back! :)

Returning to Work Monday

Monday, May 14th, 2007, 3:50 am


Not quite sure what to think, I taught my class at church for one hour and my nose was hurting by the time we left church- for all the talking I was doing :( How in the world am I going to last 8 hours? :-O

I done some grocery shopping this evening, met the family (Jay, the kids, BIL&SIL, and MIL) at O'Charleys for dinner. After I got home around 9-10pm I started workingin the kitchen unpacking everything, etc. I noticed the comedy hour from CMT wa son (which was odd, cause, I don;t watch CMT!) and I thought I was going to DIE laughing, this guy had me snorting and in tears he was so hilarious. Of course, he was speaking from a Southern point of view, so, others may not appreciate the type of humor it is, but ... oh man how I wish I could find a video on it ;o)

So I sat sorting through all my bulk items I got (seeds, nuts, so forth) getting them into containers ... while we watched the Giant show or whatever with Jeff Foxworthy. I LOVE Jeff Foxworthy! This one had Kenny Rogers guest starring, and they sang Islands in the Stream, with Jeff doing Dolly's part (youtube) ;o) TOO funny ... so by then I am working on the kid's snacks and stuff for tomorrow.

I made (homemade)

Trail Mix Granola seed bars
started almond milk
my salad for lunch tomorrow
got the kid's apples/celery sliced for their snacks tomorrow
But the thing was, when I was making the seed bars ... first. I overheated the honey in the microwave. and accidentally SPILLED IT ON MY HAND. I guess I'm just pitiful!! Jay come in asking what was wrong, bagged me some ice, it hurt for three hours afterwards. I don't recommend breaking your nose, OR spilling hot honey on your hand!

I'm so tired, time to go to bed. Mother's day was ok, we ended up at IHOP after church for lunch.

Have a great day and I'll go ahead and say I appreciate all the P&PT you can give!!

Happy? Birthday ^Baby^

Tuesday, May 8th, 2007, 5:08 pm

I was up until 6am this morning. I was here on the board reading and responding to a thread until 4:30am, when I realized "crap, it's 4:30". So I tried to go to sleep, and was sooooo restless. I took some benedryl, and knocked out. Jay woke me up this morning to communicate his morning plans because he left today to work out of town. In the middle of it all the school called and Hannah was with fever and throwing up. He went and got her. He shared the suprise he found when going to rent a car for his trp, that our car insurance was cancelled. He had to fix that this morning. Bless his heart.

So I wake up as he leaves for his trip, I dunno, 1 or so. I get up and come to the board to finish reading the thread I was reading cause last night I was enjoying it. Two hours ago, my mood started to change. As I started writing out a reply I never thought I would be writing, my neurotic tendancy to look at details, as I mentioned my CL anniversery ... I went to be sure I remembered the exact day. I know it's May, but I have a lot of May events happening and fr anyone who knows me, knows most of the time I remember nothing.

Okay, so my anniversery is the 21st ... I look at the date (cause with my being out of work, the date has to be sought) ... it's the 8th.

If cancer had not taken ^Temone's^ life, he would have turned 13 years old today. and Hannah's home. She's not suposed to be here yet. I'm a wreck. She cannot see me cry, because if she does, she'll want to talk about it. I don't have the energy to talk about it. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest ... again.

Not to mention, we just found out last week that Tiffany, MIL's dog, Temone "wife" if you will (they did have 5 puppies together ;), her cancer has come back. But she has lymphoma, treatable with chemo, so they're starting her treatments again. Since the last bout she goes in every month for a checkup. It still doesn't make things easier.

Humans are so much easier to grieve for :.....o(

So Happy Birthday ^Moni^, and thank God for grandpuppies ... that stay in the family.

Nose update (5/4)

Friday, May 4th, 2007, 6:03 pm

So went with my followup with the ENT this morning. I am out of work for another week! :-O I thought it was crazy! But they said for a broken nose, it takes around nine months to a year for it to completely heal. This means, I will be having to go back periodically for the next year to ensure that the bones are settling correctly, no infection, etc. What UNsettled me was, she said in some cases, they have to do additional surgery!! :-O Oh my word! She said of course it would be if the way it was healing was interfering with my breathing. Lets pray I won't have to do that again. I'd rather get pregnant and do another c/s before I have surgery on my nose again.

But conclusion is, it's healing, however slowly ... it IS healing. For that I'm thankful. Even though we don't physically see the swelling outwardly, inside there's still a lot of swelling ... oh and I have to keep snorting Afrin every few hours (uhg). What else. Oh I will be finishing my oxy codone Rx this weekend according to the number I have left, so that will lead me to the eventual weaning off the narcotics by the time I get back to work. The plan will be run out of oxy codone, go down to vicotin, and eventually work myself down to ibuprofen. I actually giggle at the thought of ibuprofen helping with this pain I have right now ....

She did explain it well. She said that you can basically say, I've had two injuries in two weeks. The initial break, injury one. Then the reset was an injury in that they actually went in, and moved my bones around. FTR, it felt like they moved my bones around, too. So my nose has been "interrupted" twice ;o) It just amazes me, cause when Jackson broke his arm, there weren't near as many concerns when they set the bones back together. But I guess dealing with the face it's completely different because there are SO many areas that can be affected around the nose verses any other bone.

My next appointment is May 30th and I have "homework" for that appointment. They want Jay to watch me sleep, and look at how much I actually snore, the sound of the snore, if it appears I stop breathing for any amount of time, how much I jerk in my sleep (I know I do, at times I feel like I'm coming off the bed), how long I sleep and how quickly I become tired again .. you know, that kind of stuff. Then at the next appointment he will look at what we've recorded, do his examination, and possibly refer me for a sleep study. They said it could be possible that my septum was deviated before the break and has contributed to my lack of quality of sleep. So since they've corrected the deviation, it's possible I might be sleeping better than I was before the break- that is, after the swelling goes down more.

I felt so bad calling my boss this afternoon. I know it's put them in a bind staff wise but what am I supposed to do? Worker's Comp is not going to pay out anything if my recovery is hindered because of going back to work too soon. They said NO bending my head over, at all. They said if I worked in an office on a computer all day, it would be fine. But I work with people that are two feet tall. Just a few weeks ago my boss and I were discussing the amount of migraines I have had since I started working. The angle I keep my head at most of the time has GOT to have a LOT to do with it, holding my head down at an angle, putting tension in my neck, which puts tension in the nerves going up to my head, which triggers pain signals in my brain, thus causing headaches. That's my theory, anyway. Oh but lets not forget about the teeth grinding theory, along with the TMJ we know I have thanks to Dr Cedric from the ER.

Such is my life. I've been working on this post for almost 2 hours now, and I got some GREAT news in the process! So I shall make another post for that *g*

I tried to make it quick!

Monday, March 26th, 2007, 10:10 pm


Today was okay. Work was well. I was in the 4/5 yos today, and they were wild. I wonder what they do on the weekends sometimes, do they run wild all weekend too or what? kwim? (maybe not?) hehe The asst teacher in that class left, and the new one was to start today (part timer from another class going full time), but she was sick today. I love the lead teacher in that class, she's a joy to work with.

The kids and I had dinner after I picked them up and it seemed like no time and it was bedtime for them. poor Jackson was in meltdown mode. Hannah was obviously tired cause she took her bath cheerfully, and gave me minimal whining when I was combing her hair. (Does anyone else have drama central combing little girls' hair?) I showed her the pink gown that's been missing for forever, and she quickly put it on and went to bed no problem!

Jackson on the other hand ... I had to tell him three times to get started on his homework, but when I went to check on him after about 20-30 minutes later, he hands me five sheets! He confessed to not doing his homework this weekend (2 sheets) and not doing a sheet in class today, leaving his regular two sheets for tonight. I'm proud though, he could have skipped it all but he owned up to his responsibility and done all of it without my following up on him. I say that's pretty good for an 8 yo 2nd grader! But after he finished his homework he melted ... he had been watching a hunting show while doing his work, and missed the shot when he was bringing me his papers. Poor guy.

He has also agreed to a "reading challenge". Since we're working with Jon's AR list, I asked Jackson what he thought about reading the books off Jon's list for Jackson's grade level, and writing little book reviews on it. (I told him I would even put them on "my website". ;o) I told him he could see how many books he read in the spring, and try to beat that number in the summer. Competition. That's all that was needed. he was hooked. So now instead of one list I'm now working on TWO lists, LOL!! What have I done!!??

Temone is going back to the vet tomorrow (Tuesday) and he is having surgery. What they're doing, we do not know but he called Jay today and said to be sure Temone didn't eat or drink after midnight. (Yeh, we feed our dog after midnight alllll the time, lol). It's the regular vet that is doing the surgery, which is why he did not go back today as planned on Saturday. That vet had been out last week on vacation, but he's back now. PTL~ my baby is feeling rough! But his spirits are well, I called him from the kitchen when we got home tonight and he bee-bopped in the kitchen right to me.

Junior on the other hand ... poor guy. He was in Hannah's room today when Jay left. We close their bedroom doors when we leave to avoid "accidents" by the pets. As I was getting Hannah out of the bath I heard his bell jingling from Hannah's room. He had apparently been in there since Jay left at 11am! It wouldn't be so bad but it was 72o today, and Jay ALSO left the HEAT on, so it was 80o in the house when we got home, and he was in a room with a closed door! he's outside enjoying fresh air now.

I'm slowly working on a fly-larvae journal. I found the supplies for it when I was unpacking. I want to find some daily routine's somewhere, and somehow include juicing in it, lol I should probably be juicing now, but this is my cheap therapy (blogging). I'm so glad iVillage come up with iConnect, I had a post going on for months about what to name my blog at blogspot. I was going to change the link and everything, and on blogspot the title is rather important, here it isn't as much (I don't think at least!!). Now maybe if iVillage does RSS feeds on the blogs like www.praize.com does, hey that would be cool! oh back to juicing, I am so convicnced of the benefits of it, it's just incorporating it into our daily lives. It's a big change, doing that. Have any of you tried making your own juice?

Well I guess that's enough for tonight. Any more and I will ramble. Have a great Tuesday everyone!!

Thankful Challenge (TC): Tuesday

Tuesday, March 20th, 2007, 10:14 pm

I'm thankful my boss took me seriously when I said "I wanna gooooooo!" when I found out the 4/5 yo class was going to the children's museum this week- I got to go today (for free!) They have this new special effect / virtual game thing Jackson is going to LOVE. We WILL be taking the kids soon! I'm thankful my imitrex worked this morning or I would have been HURTING after the field trip! I'm thankful Jay cleaned the house while he was home today. I'm thankful Sis seems to be appreciating my involvement in dn's reading challenge. I'm thankful Jackson is so excited about their achievement testing this week, he's totally stoked!!

HUGE shocker today!!

Wednesday, March 7th, 2007, 10:42 pm


I wa sso happy to be filling out the paperwork for my employers group health insurance this morning. Jay's insurance changed and we dropped it two weeks ago because it was useless. Then my boss comes in asking me if I was SURE I wanted to cover my family, it would be $700 a month!!! OMIGoodness!! So we're in a health insurance crisis now for the kids and Jay :::uhg::: My insurance is free, praise the Lord.

Jay is leaving tomorrow on business. That should be interesting with the kids. He's been so moody lately but he doesn;t see it. I see it. I'm feeling it, but he needs to be able to recognize it, kwim? His voice is way too high, it;s unlike him. Or maybe I'm yelling LESS now because of working in childcare? kwim?

Off to bed, have a good night :)

Good Tuesday Morning ...?

Tuesday, March 6th, 2007, 7:49 am


Hannah is still running a small fever, but Jay is home from work today so he will be staying with her. Howevr we've had a tense morning cause I dared to ask if he was taking Jackson. "I never take them on Tuesdays" ... "Because you take them on Mondays, you didn't yesterday so I thought we were flip flopping" ... "but ..." rah rah rah. I told him to go back to bed and I wold take him but noooooo, he wouldn't have that!! Uhg, what a way to start the day! I hope he gets me coffee on the way back ;O)

Work said they were already short handed when I called in yesterday. I wonder how rough it will be today? Childcare is different than other jobs I've had. Other jobs you had to work twice, three times as hard to make up the slack, childcare you do the same regardless. The only difference with me, is my position is "floater", so I may bounce around some rooms while they try to get the staff issues straightened. I feel horrible not being there yesterday (especially since I got to make sigs, catch up on laundry, etc, .. lol)- but no one wants to keep a sick child for risk of getting it them selves!

I'm already paranoid at the myriad of things going around work, but to find out at church that a whole new set of things are going around at the kid's school and church, Oy Vey!!

:::deep breath:::

So y'all have a great day today. Hope to see you more tonight ;o) Leave me bunches of comments and be sure to check out the video I uploaded last night!!

Home from work today

Monday, March 5th, 2007, 10:51 am


Hannah has contracted the stomach bug that has been going around. I'm been vegging out here at the computer for over an hour, I should clean the house some while I have the opportunity, but I don't want to! ;o)

What are y'all up to today?